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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

F.A.M.I.L.Y.

The month of December has been a hetic one for me. It was actually a month that i was looking forward to with all the church events coming along - MOL, Cambodia Trip, Christmas, Countdown Party not forgetting the weekly Services, Cell Groups with my girls and DE 24 Meeting.

However, as MOL was approaching, my granddad got admitted into the hospital. A little background abt my granddad, he has been in and out of hospital for 23 times over the last one and half years. So when i heard that he was admitted, i was just thinking to myself, it is going to be like the 24th time. In the wee hours of the Second Day of MOL, my mum's phone rang and asked us to hurry to the hospital. My whole family rushed to the hospital. At this very point of time, i was still thinking, "aiyer! my granddad is going to get well and he will be discharged" As the hours passed, i saw the BP of my granddad dropping from 70 to 60 to 50 to 40.. and slowly all the way down to 10.. At 1256 that day, he was pronounced dead. BOOM! My next 5 days was instantly booked for his wake and cremation. What that meant to me was, no more MOL, no more Cambodia Trip.

Personally, it was very difficult for me to let go. In my heart, i was upset and at the same time disappointed with the Lord.. why didn't He heal my granddad so that i could go for MOL and Cambodia. Suddenly, i realised how selfish i am.. Read again.. why.. so that... in other words, it meant that, if there wasnt any MOL or Cambodia, i actually dun mind the Lord not healing my granddad. HOW SELFISH IS THAT? In a very real sense, i wasnt close to my granddad.. but why was my heart like that.. i began to question myself.. Slowly the Lord revealed that i only want things to go my way.. and only my way.. my way - go for MOL and Cambodia. His way - give up on these and be a support to my family.

You know sometimes it is quite ironic, how the Lord can pull us away from His work literally just to force us to spend time with our family. Eventually i gave up MOL and Cambodia to be ard for my family. It was a tough decision, something that i would never have done humanly but because of the Lord i chose to honour my parents and not make things difficult for them. Thank God i stayed. My mum was really in bad shape.. she nearly fainted twice. Once upon hearing the death of my granddad and another while my granddad was being pushed in to be cremated. Those were the 2 moments that i knew if my bro, sis or me werent there, she would have collapsed. Slowly, i began to see how important my family is to me.

It is human nature that we tend to take the people closest to us for granted. I am guilty of that. only going to my parents for money, going to my parents only when i needed the them.

Prior to my granddad's death, my maid got sacked.. and that means i need to do house work.. a few days after, my parents and sis went overseas.. leaving me to wash my own clothes and clear up the big house, and also being afraid of staying alone at home. The Lord began to show me, how much my parents has been a support to me and when i am alone without them life can actually be quite horrible - Staying at home alone, Cant ask for money, Cant ask for rides to the MRT stations..

From the whole episode, i begin to treasure my parents more and trying to be a blessing to them in any small way i can. For me, i made a it my New Year Resolution to spend more time with my family. It is very difficult for me because i dun like to spend time time with them. But i will resolve to do that. I do not want the Lord to teach me through such hard times like taking another family member away, for me wake up my idea and know the importance of a family.

This is what family really is, when all the siblings can say together
Father And Mother I Love You!

May you find the importance of your family. Dont wait till the last minute and regret.. :)

Lastly, just want to thank God for protecting my parents in their recent trip to Bangkok. Although their hotel was located in BKK, they were not affected by the bombing. Its really God's hands upon them, protecting them and giving them back to me. Thank you Lord! =)

- Liangming

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