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Friday, December 30, 2005
Sharing #40

It has been so quiet here! haha.. here's 'lots' of noise..... ;)

It has been a busy month or so hasnt it? With the chorale, then Christmas party, then MOL, then now new yr party...... i am REALLY looking forward to the DE24 retreat. A time to rest... a time to get away... a time to reflect. End of year times has always been a time for me to reflect back on what has happened. What the Lord has brought me thru. The lessons that He tried to teach and the values tested.

It has been a yr of favour and blessings. So here's counting the blessings!

1. Moving to Manulife wasnt a easy decision to make. The process was one tat was so uncertain that i was literally frozen with fear to make any decision. And as i seeked the Lord abt the move the Lord just said:" Wherever u go, I will be there with u." And with tat promise i went ahead. Looking back i am so thankful for His faithfulness! Coz His favour was indeed with me thru out the yr at Manulife! To cut the whole story short, God provided for me financially. So much so that as i did my accounts, i am amazed as to how i managed to spend what i spent, blessed the ministry, go for my yearly diving trip, buy my pda and still managed to save money! And to top it off, i am the top in terms of performance for my batch of advisers that entered the agency at the same time! Considering the amount of time i put into work as compared to my colleagues... haha... God's hand was evident. And i still had so much time to do ministry and stuff.

2. God blessed me with a cellgroup that honestly comprises of the most obedient people!! The cell literally dropped on my lap and it grew so fast tat i am now having problems managing it! haha! But it is a good problem! Hahah! And as i see each prayer for the cell answered and how the boys grow, i know it is God at work. Everytime i think about the boys (Yes you!) i am just so thankful for their lives. And it is thru looking at them struggle thru life... the pain... the joy... tat i understand the Father's love God has for us. How much He wants to know everything about us. How much joy He has when we go to Him even for the simplest things. Thank you Father!

3. Learnt many things abt myself. Good things and bad. The good i thank God for... the bad i pray that God will help me as i tackle them. Yes!! Leaders have bad things too!!! hahah!!! As i serve i begin to understand more as to what others mean when they say that God will use what u have experienced to bless those under u. Jesus was the greatest example! He come down onto earth to experience life as a human so that we know our God KNOWS our pain and what we go thru. So take heart! The trials u are going thru now is part of the equiping process so tat u can be a blessing to others in the future!

4.Went thru a tough time of checking my values and character. Friendship, family, my expectations of others, self-worth, why i do the things i do.... It was hard. Hard to let go and humbling to know the lousy state i am actually in. Humbling to know how powerless i am when it comes to handling those things myself. Pride gets to u without even u knowing. How hard my heart has become to protect myself from the rejections and the disappointments. I am thankful to God for showing me that to protect myself from those things i need to open my heart so tat He can come in and heal those wounds and to correct my values instead of closing it. Closing my heart would only cause me to dwell in those pain longer than i need to.

5. My parents are finally taking a break and decided to sell the house and retire. The last day of business will be before CNY. After tat they will rent the stall out. The house has always been the thing that is dragging us down financially coz of the high mortgage. Thank God that God changed my dad's mind and he decided to sell it. And also for us to find a buyer and have a good price coz it isnt easy for my house to be sold since it is so old. U all will see on sat! hahaha..... and for giving us such a nice place to be staying in. I am moving to Hougang! Then my parents can begin to enjoy life and i can dun worry so much for the family. Thou there are many uncertainties, i know that God will see us thru. And i thank God for #34!!!! (read devotion #34) :)

So what does 2006 have for us? Do u only ask God to give you the good stuff and not the bad? My prayer has always been for God to open my eys so tat i wun miss whatever He has planned.... the good AND the bad. May it be ur prayer too. :)

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